sianz... it sat again!!! had been j0bless 4 a week plus lia0...kinda getting m0re & m0re nervous...i need inc0me every m0nth 4 bills, mum's allowance, f00d & transport... m0st impt. buy things i need & wan!!!~ d0tx..d0tx..
quite em0ti0nal n0wadays...maybe dear r rite...to0 pressure or i can say to0 stress abt getting a j0b... last few days having headach... n0n-st0p...making m0i can't slp... w0ke dear up & "an mo" till i slpt...
frm tat day onwards, every nite is a nightmare 4 m0i...jus can't cl0se my eyes...the m0ment i cl0se, brain starting thinking wat happened if i still can't find a j0b... n0 $$...h0w my mum g0ing 2 survive.... dear can't simply jus support m0i & my family... h0w h0w h0w??? =( made m0i m0re alert than slpy... haix...
keep thinking & thinking...tears started fl0wing... every nite cried till i fall aslp... it been 3 days lia0... even th0ugh i tried 2 wake up earli in the m0rning, at nite i still c0uldn't slp... i m0re i f0rce myself 2 slpt, the m0re awake i am... h0w sia??? made my m0od swing...
s0 last nite, ar0und 3a.m...dear c0uldn't slp... he saw my sw0llen eyes...oh n0... tears jus fl0wing d0wn n0n-st0p... i can say i can't c0ntr0l myself... he tried 2 c0nsole m0i, giving m0i advice... i cried l0uder... d0tx..d0tx.. cried till dunn0 wat time...finally i st0pped & slpt...
0f c0s this m0rning, i can't barely open my eyes as it hurt & damm sw0llen... haix yo...arb0 n0t intend 2 g0 out... m0od jus swinging... can't decide whether wan 2 g0 Wild wild wet or Sentosa...ended up jus meet yl, winnie & dear g0 2 t0wn...
dear b0ught a watch at FarEast...hey very chi0 l0rz... if my hand wrist is bigger, i might consider buying to0... but it jus dun l0ok nice on m0i...nvm, since dear b0ught m0i a pair of earings which i've aiming 4 a few months lia0...luv it... heehee...
feeling s0 sianz, left yl & winnie at FarEast went cine awhile...then g0 h0me l0rz...
thanx dear 4 accompany m0i last nite... s0rri 2 make u late 4 w0rk... h0pe everything will went back 2 n0rmal... wish m0i gd luck..... =*
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